Quick Update

I see the psychiatrist on Monday morning, bright and early. If I don't like this one I have another option in Bangor and they will take me as soon as possible due to the results of an assessment my therapist asked me to take. If I'd taken the assessment back in September, I would probably have seen a psychiatrist by now but my therapist didn't know about their particular assessment at that time, so I've been waiting 4 months. To break it down, anything 8 or above on the assessment isn't great and I scored a 15. It's like I'm a ticking time bomb or something. Anyway, therapist doesn't want me worrying about it so I'm not. I just want to find the right combination of meds and find something that resembles normal. Wish me luck, as the next couple of months could be a little rocky while we figure out the meds and stuff.

Cycling up

My mood is cycling up which is a good thing in some respects and a bad one in others. Basically I am not as depressed but there is a chance I will do something stupid, like spend money I don't have or send an email to someone expressing my love of them. While these may not seem like a big deal, once the floodgates open, it could get bad quick. Luckily I am aware of this and can, hopefully, keep it all under control. Eventually, though, this will all wear off and I'll be back in the dark place. It's the cycle of my life.

I did, finally, get an appointment with a psychiatrist. At the end of the month I will be assessed and started on a pharmaceutical protocol that will keep my moods more stable. There is trial and error involved but I'm hoping we can find a better "normal" than what I am experiencing now.

There is more I could write but, another part of cycling up is that I tend to ramble on about whatever pops into my head and no one needs to read that crap.